It's hard to believe it’s been 15 years since you walked this earth. I'm sitting in my office at work thinking about the person you were. All I can do is smile. You always brought so much life to every situation you were in. I remember sitting on the phone with you while you played the guitar and sang "Don't take the girl". I wasn't much on country music so that was the first time I've ever heard it and when I hear it now, all of think of is you. I think about all your funny ways, and how you would pretend to fall just to make people laugh. I think about all those times you walked to my house and then drove from white oak :-/ lol. I think about our relationship that then just turned into a friendship that I will forever cherish. We talked boys, girls, and everyday life; almost every single day. Even though we always "crushed" on each other we were the best of friends. I think about the last couple of months of your life and how I wish things could've turned out different for you. I remember how much you talked about your mom, aunt and brothers and how you loved them. You had a lot of friends, a few close ones. You knew how to love and accept people for who they were and how you only wanted them to view you the same way. I have every letter you ever wrote me... good or bad ha! I have every email. Every picture. I have all the memories stored inside my heart. We had a song we loved for each other called Dilemma by Nelly. It was so true. Being so young we experienced a lot of life with each other. It took me along time to heal from losing you. I went from everyday talking to you for hours or even just 30 minutes to nothing, it just stopped. You were my best friend. You were always trying to find yourself. Whether a cowboy, a gangster or just a boy. I remember the path you wanted to be on, but it always just seemed to be hard and far away. One thing I can say, is the life you lived, you lived it with love and laughter. I don’t think we truly heal from losing people, I think God just makes it easier for us to live the life he created for us. I pray often that you are in peace. In my heart I know you are happy, dancing, playing music, falling, and laughing with Jesus. I pray for peace in your Moms heart and all your family. Thank you for being my guardian angel and serval others.
Love always, Lauren
