We celebrated our two year anniversary of being together a few weeks ago. Last year she gave me a key to her house. Both events were very significant to us and we have been realizing that something deep was taking form. I had to leave the state (unexpectedly) to handle something just before she passed. It only adds to the pain that I was several states away when she was taken from us. I couldn't be at the crash site or hospital to do whatever I could. There was excitement in the air about my return before she passed.
It's been a week since it happened and I'm still shedding tears late into the night and when I wake up. Even in the day. It's her beautiful heart and her sweet personality that made it so easy to spend every minute I could with her. I often worried about her but this is such a shock that I am only now starting to accept that I will never stare into her eyes or hold her hand again. It's taken a week to realize that this isn't a nightmare or a mistake. I have been praying that it was.
I wrote this post to leave a glimpse into her life. I wrote an earlier post about her and I want wanted to add more in a less emotional state. I have failed miserably considering that tears are streaming down my face as I write this. Not a day went by without multiple contacts between us. She was a beautiful person and I not only pray for her now but I will continue to pray for her.